I have problems. So i started play online game. What i hate most, is, that i embarrassing myself again and again. I do things, i don’t do in real life. Not by purpose, but because i’m unstable, lost my way, loosing my patience for waiting for God.
It’s so hard to hold on, when you alone. I mean no man searching for same as me. It hurt!!!
My friend once told me, that he like me because i never whine. No i do it every day and i’m glad, he is not here.
So i was wondering, why i do such things, like i do – i am too shame even to talk about this right now. No – nothing like sexy or something, just things, that i never didn’t allow myself to do, like not keeping my promises or whining or… I never was like this, but now..
So i was wondering – what’s going on? I am getting old ? I always take it like excuse – so i wont accept it.
And then suddenly God, so quiet last few days , told me : so you again try it? Walk with your own strength only? Remember – when ever you make a mistake, don’t listen Holy Spirit – your’s bad habits, corrupted sinful nature came back. To not to be, what you hate, walk in Spirit! You made mistake? Admit it! And come back to Me!
Why i write “BLIND faith””
I read today about man, who weren’t sure, what God want’s from him, why he is here? And then there was nice short story , leading…. nowhere. Just one advice – wait and faith.
I was sitting here, looking at screen and , yeah, i just blow – with those nice stories people are lead to DEATH!
You don’t know what God want’s from you? You don’t know, what your’s life purpose? ASK HIM! it’s ONLY WAY to know. i lost my way. Maybe, what God told me, doesn’t mean nothing to you, but for me – they are everything!!! i rose my head and thank Him. I was lost and found again. Because i DID ASK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
stop BLIND faith, God HATES IT THE MOST!
Faith like a child have – WITH NO DOUBTS! – THAT IS HE LOOKING FOR. BUT BLIND FAITH , FAITH WITHOUT KNOWLEDGE, LEADING, MAKE A WAY STRAIGHT TO HELL.