What means “faith as small as a mustard seed”?

He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”
Matthew 17:20

One day i did pray for my illness, but it didn’t help. Worried, i did ask God
– why my prayers did work last time, but not now?
God – Do you believe?
me – yes
God – Do you really?
me – um mm…
God – you need faith just big as a mustard seed
me – ???
God – remember, yours baptism with Holy Spirit? How long did you actually believed, you got it?
me – for a second, or even less. Just got feeling, that i have it already and next i had doubts…
God – “faith just big as a mustard seed” is less then second. Its about time, not strength.

The end 😉

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What this blog is about

When i first find out, Who is talking with me, through my mind, this is answer on my first question to God: “Why You are talking with me? Who am i? I am none!…”
God:

I want to talk with all My children, but few is, who wants to listen…

I will share only my real life experiences with God’s lessons and my testimonies. There will be several thoughts also under “Just random thoughts”  category and also some other’s people posts, that i like to share under “Shared posts” category.
Also there is menu “All posts”  , that contains all posts on this blog.
No guessing, no fantasy, just reality.

Is it possible to see Jesus right now?

I never tought, that might be question for christians.

But, as i see one girls post, i also made quick search in google.
Seems  so, it is not common, to see Jesus?
Call me bragger, but i lost count, ho many times i have had seen Him.
I never thought it is rare happening.
But i also never thought, that there are christians, who dont talk with God. Or dont want to…

I just read and study Bible alone, only God teaching me, what is what.
Maybe that’s why, away from false teachings, alone for years, just God teaching me, many things happened with me.
I hated once to be alone, now i think, it was made by purpose.

I asked once God – Do what ever it takes, do what You need, ignore my whining, but save me and teach me please!

And He did.

Now i know, seeing Jesus depends ONLY from us.

There is 2 situations, when i see Him:

  1. my heart is clean and i need Him next to me, at this moment.
    Key word – clean heart.
  2. In group. while praying – when i didnt see Him, i was worried for days – something is wrong with me…

Whoever has my commandments and keeps them, he it is who loves me. And he who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I will love him and manifest myself to him.
John 14:21

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.
Matthew 5:8

For where two or three are gathered in my name, there am I among them.
Matthew 18:20

I was teached by God, that, those quotes are for those people, who still live on earth. I was teached by God, never doubt in Hes promises.

For me they still works and it’s normal and beautiful too see Jesus. I f you call me “crazy” or something – just notice – i was checked from 3 different doctors and conclusion – absolutely normal. Also i dont dare to lie, if i talk about God.

The quieter you become, the more you can hear? Real life experience – nope! another lie…

I even don’t bother read that post.

Already that sentence is half-truth, that means – lie.

Doesn’t mean how busy is your’s life, ok, let’s talk about me – my life, every second, every moment , doesn’t matter where i am – at work, walking, watching movie, listening music… if only i turn in my mind to God, asking – Is it so? or Could You explain it to me? or You there?… Just few seconds of waiting and there He is – talking with me, while i talk with client or wondering what to cook today….

All i need, is READINESS TO LISTEN HIM!

just that… and no music is too loud then or my busy life too full, to talk with Him just some minutes.

and don’t tell me, He act with you differently – He is God, Who DOESN”T CHANGE!

You say – you don’t hear God?

No, no no! God told me, that Holy Spirit EVERY DAY GIVE TO EVERY MAN/WOMAN ADVISES, LEADING AND TIPS OF HOW-TO.

ONLY PROBLEM IS – we don’t pay attention!

i remember yet my first time, when i noticed, that i got “an idea” that was true and.. i couldn’t know it with no way! i remember how fast i just throw that incident out of my head. If God weren’t  consistent and almost yell at me next time.. who knows – maybe i would say same today.

Pay attention! Turn off music, radio in your car or home. tv. take some time off from noise , read book or draw or.. make yours surrounding quiet as possible.
and wait. I had then almost 3 months time, when no friends were near, no tv or radio or music was at my home. quiet 24/7 – just me and sometimes cry of my baby. i had time to think and pay attention. If you really looking for Him, honestly, try it.

One more moment, that is important – i wasn’t even believer then, when started to talk with God! I just started to wonder and pray first and only once before those 3 months of quiet. Asking help in my minds, i don’t count as a prayer.  I get Bible AFTER I STARTED TO TALK WITH GOD! Because i wanted to know better, Who He is.

He CANT SAY MORE STRAIGHT

“If you will diligently listen to the voice of the Lord your God, and do that which is right in his eyes, and give ear to his commandments and keep all his statutes, I will put none of the diseases on you that I put on the Egyptians, for I am the Lord, your healer.”

exodus 15:26

just read about “paid attention” or “pay attention” from Bible. Take those verses and get a picture. It’s big, it might shock, it’s awesome and terrifying.

Ask Jesus to heal your’s ears and eyes, if there is still problems , after you made quiet in yours house, are sincere before Him, don’t lie or hide anything before Him , read Bible and DO, what Jesus teach. Because i know – when i do that, He’s voice is clear and audible. More of that… but that’s another story and maybe you write it.

Blind faith, BLIND faith – it’s not right

I have problems.  So i started play online game. What i hate most, is, that i embarrassing myself again and again. I do things, i don’t do in real life. Not by purpose, but because i’m unstable, lost my way, loosing my patience for waiting for God.

It’s so hard to hold on, when you alone. I mean no man searching for  same as me. It hurt!!!

My friend once told me, that he like me because i never whine. No i do it every day and i’m glad, he is not here.

So i was wondering, why i do such things, like i do – i am too shame even to talk about this right now. No – nothing like sexy or something, just things, that i never didn’t allow myself to do, like not keeping my promises or whining or… I never was like this, but now..

So i was wondering – what’s going on? I am getting old ? I always take it like excuse – so i wont accept it.

And then suddenly God, so quiet last few days , told me : so you again try it? Walk with your own strength only? Remember – when ever you make a mistake, don’t listen Holy Spirit – your’s bad habits, corrupted sinful nature came back. To not to be, what you hate, walk in Spirit! You made mistake? Admit it! And come back to Me!

Why i write “BLIND faith””

I read today about man, who weren’t sure, what God want’s from him, why he is here? And then there was nice short story , leading…. nowhere. Just one advice – wait and faith.

I was sitting here, looking at screen and , yeah, i just blow – with those nice stories people are lead to DEATH!

You don’t know what God want’s from you? You don’t know, what your’s life purpose? ASK HIM! it’s ONLY WAY to know.  i lost my way. Maybe, what God told me, doesn’t mean nothing to you, but for me – they are everything!!!  i rose my head and thank Him. I was lost and found again. Because i DID ASK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stop BLIND faith, God HATES IT THE MOST!

Faith like a child have – WITH NO DOUBTS! – THAT IS HE LOOKING FOR. BUT BLIND FAITH , FAITH WITHOUT KNOWLEDGE, LEADING, MAKE A WAY STRAIGHT TO HELL.

I did read some posts today. I don’t do it often but today i looked for “can we trust our feelings?”

Psychology say – rather not

Christians say – definitely not

My experience say – God don’t do ANYTHING WITHOUT REASON OR EVEN FOR SEVERAL REASONS.

God gave us feelings. He admit, that He is sometimes sad, sometimes glad and never say in the Bible  – but.. I can’t trust My feelings, so never mind…

What God said once about feelings?

Feelings – can we trust them?

 

Bridge between spiritual and physical world

I have had heard many times, that we must not trust our feelings.

I left church right after i saw, that they don’t teach Bible, like it is written.
But i had questions – a lot. So, after i could talk with God freely, He was my Teacher last 26 years. And once He told me:

“Feelings are bridge between physical and spiritual world”

Here is little bit more about feelings

“‘This people honors me with their lips, but their heart is far from me;
Matthew 15:8

if feelings, like love, hate and our wishes (thoughts WITH feelings – plans, dreams…) is so useless, THEN WHY JESUS WAS SAD, THAT PEOPLE WHO SAY – I BELIEVE IN GOD – DON’T REALLY LOVE HIM??? DON’T WE SAY – I LOVE YOU WITH WHOLE MY HEART??? DON’T WE FEEL SOMETHING IN THE SPOT, WHERE OUR PHYSICAL HEART IS, IF WE LOVE OR HATE???

STOP TRUST MAN’S WISDOM AND ASK FROM GOD!

i said enough. let God teach you, it’s always my only advice.

Just few advises, I’ve got from Holy Spirit, still keep and may share

First of all, if you truly want find God, start from new  Testament. Do all, Jesus teach there, even some are not pleasant.

Then after a while, you should hear Holy Spirit audible enough to ask questions and get answers. He will teach and lead you from here.

Old Testament is “sealed” – that means, all what is written, is understandable only for those, who already can hear Holy Spirit audible and He will explain , what you need, from Old Testament. Try to “find a key” or understand it with your own mind (except some from psalms and most of proverbs) is big mistake. For example – God told me, that all laws are now mostly spiritual. If in Old Testament days people had to shed earth lamb blood, then now we shed Jesus’s blood – with mouth, words and act is pure spiritual. Ritual reminds same – blood is different.

Anyone, who don’t teach Bible as it is or leave out something or deny something from there – are pharisees (deny Holy Spirit hearing and leading) or hypocrites (just pretend to be christians). As Jesus say – run from them! Paul say – don’t eat with them, don’t accept from them ANYTHING.

Those simple steps should lead you to Teacher. And as John say:

you have no need that anyone should teach you.
1 John 2:27