What this blog is about

When i first find out, Who is talking with me, through my mind, this is answer on my first question to God: “Why You are talking with me? Who am i? I am none!…”

I want to talk with all My children, but few is, who wants to listen…

I will share only my real life experiences with God’s lessons and my testimonies. There will be several thoughts also under “Just random thoughts”  category and also some other’s people posts, that i like to share under “Shared posts” category.
Also there is menu “All posts”  , that contains all posts on this blog.
No guessing, no fantasy, just reality.


I did read some posts today. I don’t do it often but today i looked for “can we trust our feelings?”

Psychology say – rather not

Christians say – definitely not


God gave us feelings. He admit, that He is sometimes sad, sometimes glad and never say in the Bible  – but.. I can’t trust My feelings, so never mind…

What God said once about feelings?

Feelings – can we trust them?


Bridge between spiritual and physical world

I have had heard many times, that we must not trust our feelings.

I left church right after i saw, that they don’t teach Bible, like it is written.
But i had questions – a lot. So, after i could talk with God freely, He was my Teacher last 26 years. And once He told me:

“Feelings are bridge between physical and spiritual world”

Here is little bit more about feelings

“‘This people honors me with their lips, but their heart is far from me;
Matthew 15:8



i said enough. let God teach you, it’s always my only advice.

Just few advises, I’ve got from Holy Spirit, still keep and may share

First of all, if you truly want find God, start from new  Testament. Do all, Jesus teach there, even some are not pleasant.

Then after a while, you should hear Holy Spirit audible enough to ask questions and get answers. He will teach and lead you from here.

Old Testament is “sealed” – that means, all what is written, is understandable only for those, who already can hear Holy Spirit audible and He will explain , what you need, from Old Testament. Try to “find a key” or understand it with your own mind (except some from psalms and most of proverbs) is big mistake. For example – God told me, that all laws are now mostly spiritual. If in Old Testament days people had to shed earth lamb blood, then now we shed Jesus’s blood – with mouth, words and act is pure spiritual. Ritual reminds same – blood is different.

Anyone, who don’t teach Bible as it is or leave out something or deny something from there – are pharisees (deny Holy Spirit hearing and leading) or hypocrites (just pretend to be christians). As Jesus say – run from them! Paul say – don’t eat with them, don’t accept from them ANYTHING.

Those simple steps should lead you to Teacher. And as John say:

you have no need that anyone should teach you.
1 John 2:27


How is it possible? Have real experience with Holy Spirit talking and yet go so wrong?

When i read many posts about Holy Spirit leading in real life, i also made research, where are those people now, what are they doing?

sad: “they all are gone astray..”

i sit here and thnik – why they still don’t have daily talks and lessons with Holy Spirit? Why hearing Him is so complicated for them? They had real experience, why now they don’t search for more? I see them in false teachings, in churches, that are already way too far from real God. If you hear Holy Spirit, that can’t happen! He stop you , make you think, see mistakes and show what is true, what is false. Under He’s leading you can’t go too far from God!

Then why they go astray? i see, many don’t have real experience – i don’t talk about them. I speak about those, who had real experience. who did go through miracles.
I see many don’t make a difference,  FROM WHERE you got an idea? I know, it takes time to recognize Holy Spirit voice. And that doesn’t mean, you can’t be deceived – just a second too busy mind – and … You have to be critical and “test every spirit” whole day. It was hard for me at first time, now it’s habit, like, breath, for example.

i’m too far from Jesus, how He did live, even i know – it’s possible. But when i told today, from bitter heart, that: “Maybe i just overreacting? Maybe they are right, i am wrong?”

God told me: ”
There is no shadow’s i the light!
MY LAMBS know My voice!
If you truly love Me, you DO AS I DID TEACH IN THE BIBLE!
Then you are My lamb!
Then you will hear Me audible!
Then you won’t be deceived, if you know scriptures!

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Thirsty for God

I have such feeling time to time. I just long to feel Him more closely, see Him.
So i wondered, when my thirst become so strong, that i cry, how to get ride of that feeling, what is it?

So, that is what i feel sometimes:

As a deer pants for flowing streams,
so pants my soul for you, O God.
My soul thirsts for God,
for the living God.
Psalm 42:1-2

O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you;
my flesh faints for you,
as in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
Psalm 63:1-…

Then one day i started to read Psalm’s again, from the beginning. And i wonder, still wonder, how blind i really am? There is answer and it’s working :

Blessed is the man
who walks not in the counsel of the wicked,
nor stands in the way of sinners,
nor sits in the seat of scoffers;

but his delight is in the law of the Lord, (BIBLE now)
and on his law he meditates day and night.

He is like a tree
planted by streams of water
that yields its fruit in its season,
and its leaf does not wither.

So – be aware, what you are doing  and… READ BIBLE.

When i started to read Bible more often again, that feeling of thirst slowly go away. Sometimes get’s stronger, for a while.

I often did start to search something from internet posts, when i felt thirsty. That is how it ended – so far , almost always.

For the fool speaks folly,
and his heart is busy with iniquity,
to practice ungodliness,
to utter error concerning the Lord,
to leave the craving of the hungry unsatisfied,
and to deprive the thirsty of drink.
Isaiah 32

Thing is – even with good attend to do good: people, who just fantasy and say – Look that happened to me! – are insane, hoping , that LIE can become water of life.

You can’t deceive God. HE MAKE YOUR”S WORDS INTO WATER OF LIFE!  If you lie, even with good reason, your’s words will be soon “to leave the craving of the hungry unsatisfied,  and to deprive the thirsty of drink.” i just couldn’t figure out, why i feel bad, when reading those posts. Yes i tried to warn them, stop them, but i didnt succeed.

Don’t do it, please, if you care. Don’t lie, even if you mean it for good reason. Lie NEVER help, build up, or what ever, LIE ALWAYS DESTROY! even if readers don’t know, you are lying.

If you thirsty – read Bible, talk with God – if you already know how and wait for Him – He’s answers are always so amazing ❤

What is my life purpose?

I did start wonder about it recently. Not because of me – i just follow God’s leadings and don’t worry about it, but my kids – age of teenage – have that question for a time now.

When, days ago, i did read Psalms i found this:

Who, then, are those who fear the Lord?
He will instruct them in the ways they should choose.
Psalm 25:12

Just listen your’s heart – what brings joy, happiness and peace, while doing it?
NB! Peace is most important here.
We are clay in the hands of God – He did give to us our character. Each character loves to do something, more then others.
Let me repeat Heavenly Father’s words, what He gave to my son:

Do you make chair from wood, to eat? Or spoon, to sit?
You are made to do something, you are good or even better  then others in it.

Just seek, what you love to do and do it – as primary job or as hobby – summary of teaching of The God.

And one thing more -from my own experience –  even sometimes you may feel like failed or not so good or what you do, is boring – it’s just temporary – if you stay stubborn and keep going – one day you find out, that, what you is important, is good and are not boring.

It’s will be so, i was there. And what give me most pleasure – seeing, that what i do, brings joy AND peace to other’s too.


Why is Jesus The WORD?

There is 4 row in the Bible, that say, why John REALLY  call Jesus the “WORD”.
Honestly? I was shocked, when find out, that in the internet NONE write about it – truth, 4 rows in the Bible, why Jesus IS THE WORD.

Because it is just on “plain sight”,  i refuse to write about it. If God don’t want me to write about it, i wont do it by myself. Many, who speaks about that  subject are so close, yet they all are wrong. Because to see it, you first must believe, that Jesus IS GOD and is S O N. son – key  word again.=